when I look at you
I see a shallow kid
who was once so sweet
before all you did
once had a dream
once caring, or so you did seem

now, you stupid kid
you're so messed up
you stupid kid
you messed me up
you lied to me
and you did see
me fall so hard

I was a girl
a young girl crazy about you
believed you cared
and for a minute, it was love we shared

you left me a year or so later
made it with some girl
I did hate her
I remember crying in your arms
as you pretended to care
when you left
turns out your mind had been there
not here
not right here with me

and time went on
after it all went away, I still had hopes for someday
and some nights I would still cry
then it was a year after you left me
when to the other girl, you said goodbye
and now you're alone
but I just got over you
for a while, I gave you all I had
and now just the sight of you makes me mad

you come on by from time to time
"get out!", I say
I no longer want you mine
now you don't see me as more than a piece of meat
your hands on my body
sort of like you own me
but you don't
you don't

I tell you to get away
because you messed me up
so I don't want to hear what you have to say
you're so different
so unlike the boy I knew
now I truly don't like you
you don't respect me
you think I'll give you myself
because at one point I did
way back when you were someone else

so leave me alone
please don't stay
leave me alone
you've already gotten your way
and now we're done
don't you see
after the hurt, you don't get me physically

I won't put out
I won't give in
I won't listen to your words
as you try to prove your greatness
you know, I truly hate this
so I don't want to hear it
I don't want to hear
looking back, how did I  handle you that year?