The memory of pain keeps coming back but the feeling has almost completely vanished.
Its strange that at times, I seem to want to cherish pain, but there is no pain anymore.
Nothing to cry for...nothing to feel for.
My life might attract many onlookers.
A life with no pain, a life with only smiles and laughter.
But let me warn you, its very difficult to attain such a life where you have escaped all fears of pain, all feelings of pain and all people causing the pain.  
Its not easy to reach a point where you can forget at will and remember only on command...
Its not easy...
Perhaps only when we get the whole share of our pain, we attain a state where we can switch on and switch off pain at will...
But believe me...
That's not something you'll want to have...