i am so sorry so so sorry and i will never forgive myself for not being able to give you my everything because all of me every ounce of my being is not even enough to repay every drop of your soul that you have offered me i cry and i cry and i just cant i am so sorry that my love is incapable my heart not made big enough to hold the half the weight you hold for me i am a wretch i am so flawed i am so unworthy of everything you have showered on me and i want the best for you i want you to find someone worthy i want you to love and be loved as deeply and profoundly but until then i guess ill keep digging my hole in hell deeper and be selfish just a while longer until i decide i am too disgusting to accept anymore from you because i am sorry and no amount of me saying that will ever make up for the time you have wasted on me i only pray that i will cherish you the way you deserve i only pray that i can love you half of what you deserve at least i only pray that one day you will hate me because that is what i deserve and not you