I sit here on my back steps in the sun,
Tears streaming down my face,
Attempting to heal myself with a cup of tea and a slice of cherry pie.
The pie I made for you,
The one that you will never eat.
I'm left to contemplate everything,
No matter how I look at it,
It is all still a mess.
But I can't play the games anymore,
The drama isn't for me.

I think of all the tears I've cried,
And how I don't want to cry over you anymore.
I also think of all the things that have been left unsaid.
How yesterday I wanted to say it all,
Now today I have to let it go like none of it matters anymore.
Like it doesn't matter that I never told you that I loved you.

But heart break is a part of life,
It will build and strengthen me.
I know I will be okay.
I won't let this define me.

I'll keep that rose that you gave me on the very first night,
And the jumper I bought you,
But never gave to you.
One day I will look at these and will recall the memories of us,
And I'll smile.

I'll smile because you taught me that I'm capable of letting someone into my life.
That there is a lot that I can give and can offer another person.
I'll smile because all the bad will be dulled with time,
And I can recall all that was good about us.

My heart is currently aching,
And I know that these things don't always work out.
I hope that these decisions you have made make you happy.
That's all I want for you.
Now I have to step back and let you get their on your own,
Or with someone else holding your hand.