Tonight my desperate body is trying hard to release the pain inside.
The pain that tries to push its way out of me.
Crying no longer helps.
And I am unable to talk.

I force myself to continue to experience this
because there is no other way out.

Pain flows through me
I shiver as I allow it to pull me beneath the surface.
It disappears and I float back to the surface
and drift until another wave drags me under again.