So high that you can't really tell
where your body is
and what the floor feels like
a type of drug that runs through my veins like oxygen
that I readily injected
but this drug kept me in a sane place
where I could focus and function
I could be with my friends
and I could live my life while letting you live yours
but as soon as I stopped
I felt reality crashing into me
and what I found left me breathless
my heart started beating
the shattered pieces trying to meld together
that continued to cut into my lungs
Denial was so ready at my fingertips
and I could slip away so easily
and pretend for another day
so I did
again and again
until my tolerance was growing
and soon
I was immune
only left to see
reality for what it was
and all I can think is
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