it's dark all around me
and the air is too think for me to breathe.
even in the mornings, when the sun is high and the birds rejoice in song,
my world is dark.
it's like it takes over me
body and soul
and no one hears my scream or cries and pleas
all they seem to hear is "I'm fine"
but unless "fine" means losing sight of everything and everyone near you
unless "fine" means looking forward to a red ring around my bathtub every night
unless "fine" means feeling absolutely nothing
then I am not fine.