there are just some things just can't be voiced,
no matter how much i wish i could,
you were like a lover i could not reach,
the glass-like happiness i could not touch,
a broken little girl i could not save.

every word you say,
hurts me like stepping a million glass shards,
it was all my undoing,
for i could never be upfront,
for i could not be honest,
that i want you by my side,
that i want to be by yours.

i wish i caused no pain for you,
so i distance myself,
and hurt you too,
when can we stop,
hurting one another,
when can we return,
to where we were before,
side by side,
close as kins?