I'm not spewing no hate, I'm just being honest. This not a Disney Channel movie, no Pocahontas. Not really a fan of Father's Day, cause i ain't have a father. I felt as a kid, he was just like why bother.
As i got older i wished that he had tried harder. Consistent phone calls, that would have been a good starter. But i ain't get any of it, and soon i was like **** it. I got tired of waiting for something and receiving nothing.
At a point in time i started to hate him. My heart for him was cold, like who the hell wants to chase him. That feeling went on for a couple years. My heart and mental kept changing like i was switching gears.
Since we being honest recently those feelings stopped. You can't hate a stranger and truth is i don't know my pops. Although you said you love me and i said i love you back. Love and hate has twin rules, so what type of love is that.
I mean it's not sincere. It's like you're pushed to say it like you're pressured by your peers. And I'm not saying that it's sad and that brings me tears. But man-to-man it ain't something that i want to hear.