and i can feel the emptiness settle in again
the walls of my chest aching, struggling
with my lurching breath
holding on to "i miss you...
..i miss you like i dream about you
like i actually feel you in my mind pulling
when i see a girl with freckles i think of you
because they always intimidated me because
i knew they were your favorite.. those girls with freckles.
i don't have freckles to the extent you like
but it wasn't about that.

I'm struggling still with these feelings that were too much
with these aches you didn't want to soothe
these thoughts you didn't want to listen to
and i've been holding back tears for weeks
and i can't let go of them
because i've already told everyone that i'm over you

I'm not really. I loved you, i still do.
i hadn't cried since i moved away from you.
i wish i hadn't tried so hard for it to work
because then maybe it would have