I like to play RPGs It's a world that is unlike my own and I'm a character I've named myself. Sometimes I save my progress on a file- safe and undisturbed- and then I wreak havoc, make friends I wouldn't make, experiment for potential easter eggs. It feels good to know I can just go back to where I started unfazed, undamaged, unharmed. And if I ever do something substantial in my free-for-all joyride of side quest, I can always save it to another file. There are so many memory cards in my drawer.
I find myself living life this way- but with empty drawers and only one disturbed file. of only one fazed, damaged, harmed, character, that my brother named when I was a baby, in a world that I don't like too much. And everyone tells me it's a game- that we all put our hours in. I just see the option of a never-ending boss battle with loneliness, or a never-ending side quest with friends, and too much damage done, so where better to let my thumbs rest?