I want to kiss you, to feel your soft lips against mine.
I need to stay away, I know my kind and I'll leave you hurting every night.
I want to be numb, to turn myself away from the world, away from the dark crevices in my prison we call a mind.
I need to feel something anything, to connect with people who will set my soul on fire.
I want to close my eyes, swear away the world and all the people who have hurt me.
I need to open my eyes, accept what has happened and move forward.
I want to breakdown and curl up in a ball.
I need to keep my chin up, wipe away my tears and push my way forward.
I want to hate, so I can move on.
I need to love, so I can hold on...
~P.S.