Bardic pretensions aside I am full of dejection Blue devils plague me Night and day Playing with my mind Circles of thought constantly turning Whirling and whirring Worthless, self loathing, aggression Manifests along with tears and screams, let me go, let me leave but, you won't. Pop a pill, then you'll be less Possessed, but I'll still be depressed. It's not a tap, I cannot turn it off Do you think I want this? Remembering sunnier days? My life event of being diagnosed with MS caused this, do you not think I want it to go? Stressed, bereft, dispossessed you call this life? I am enmeshed by a web of my own brains doing. Descending faster than a broken elevator down, down, down all the way to the bottom. If I hear that the only way from down is up I will scream, and scream, fight and bite Scratch and holler until I am a hollow husk. Oh, no wait, I'm already a hollow husk of a human. All I want is to disappear down the rabbit hole. Un-whole, lost in the twilight zone."