and now we’re standing in a dark room full of colors and we left our morals in the bowl with our only means of leaving. we started singing lyrics to songs we didn’t know, but we got lost in the beat so nothing else really mattered; we became our own beat and you couldn’t help but smile at my mistakes because i laughed at yours. and when you leave, you couldn’t help but care for my safety and i couldn’t even make you smile but mine was sufficient enough. i can give you heaven, darling. and it’s just so hard to think when my brain is full of making pictures about how the sky would look in your eyes and how the ocean smells on your breathe and how the sun looks when it alters your hair. tell me when it’s appropriate that i hold your skin without wandering wallowing away with nowhere to head but the top of mine. play with my words and pick out each syllable you hate and throw it in the ocean, i need to hear the waves speak to me at least once. hold on to my memories because i want your dna on them, i want to know what it feels like to intertwine you within my brain.
summer 2011. **** i thought you were the best thing that ever happened to me. what a gem