I can't focus
I can't think
I can't feel

I can't do this
I can't breathe.

Am I still alive?
I need to feel something.
I need to feel something.

silver to red
silver to red
If I need to feel, i'll do my magic trick and turn silver to red

I need to, they don't understand
they hid it, but my voices are chanting "silver to red, silver to red"
Now they are screaming, " You're pathetic, you loser, you can't do anything right."

I don't feel anything, I'm numb.
but words still hurt.
I'm sobbing, curled up in the corner begging "Stop!".

But they just keeps getting louder, screaming, drowning me out.
they wants me to suffer, but then again they are me.
It's all just in my head, but they are all still so real

They taunt, They yell, They keeps me up all night.
Reminds me of mistakes, failures, my flaws
They crushes my dreams ,one by one, "who'll love you, how are you going to become a doctor" the list goes on and on

So if I just get silver
if I can just do the magic once more
then maybe I'll get some relief.