sometimes i wish i couldn't think
then i wouldn't have to worry
about being wrong,
humiliated,
scared,
alive,
or even in love

we keep circling around
in this pattern
so every day feels like the next
and those sunrises lost their charm,
but i don't want to think
i don't want to think if i'm this
and so
much of a coward

i don't dare giving you the truth
for i don't want to ruin that image
even though it's completely unreal,
i just can't trust myself to
do anything with you,
and if i can't do that
i can't stand thinking

that's
how much
i think
i want
you.