when i think about you i think about how my heart tried to hit the brakes throw my anatomy into neutral calm contained but you crashed me into a meadow where dandelions rest upon my collarbones and roses grow inside my atria i think about how i would use the ash from your cigarette and trace the veins on your arms trying to make a map so i’d never go off track so my fingers could run marathons on your ribs so my fingers could tie your heartstrings in knots in hopes the feeling would never leave i think about how when you say you love me my mind grows heavy with ‘what-ifs’ ‘for how long’ and ‘what about him’ but when i look into your eyes and i see us diving in and out of your aqueous humor ripping the retina from the walls and making our own colors i know who i am i know who i need to be i think about how making love with you turns my body into a wave frequency high enough to shatter the chandeliers the chandeliers that reflect you back to me the chandeliers that sway with each breath we take when i think about you i think about the best parts of this world the love and the hope and how i wish to experience all of these with you hand in hand driving past the meadow refusing to step on the brakes