I have a girlfriend

I have a girlfriend so why do i still wish for my breath to be stolen
I have a girlfriend so why do i wish to have my whispers be a memory to those who forget my shadow,
So why do i wish to die

I have girlfriend so why do i still wish to not exist,
Why do i still want the blood to slip down my arms like truth is spilling from my veins
Why do i wish for the blood to crystalise in my heart till it suffocates and gets blackened

I have a girlfriend
So why do i still feel empty-