You wake up,
Keep yourself numb,
Drink and play dumb.
Unlike waking up with me,
Fingers in your hair,
Breath on your face.
And there’s only so much I can do,
So much I can say,
But I bite my tongue like a dog,
Because you don’t want me.

Do you want to die
On the beach?
Or do you want to live here
With me?

When wind whips your hair,
And water covers our bodies,
Does my hand on your head
Still mean nothing?
Does my heat against your back
Just feel like another fling?

You are so unforgiving,
So stubborn,
But so tangible.
Bleed from your wrists,
Leak liquor from your heart,
And hurt me again.

Do you want to die
On the beach?
Or do you want to stay here
With me?

When your room was still safe,
And your heart was still pure,
Did it make you happy?
I hope it did.
Don’t waste my time,
Because you don’t want me.