Feeling trapped in myself
So I venture
Into my favorite place, the forest.
Never before has my heart
stayed scared in such a sacred place
Until now
As I wander..

I wonder, I worry..
Will my clap killing mosquitoes attract a bear?
A man? Or worse...

I follow the news,
I listen to true crime,
I know...
I know Im not safe in the place that's always been a shelter to me.

The great and sacred trees know many wisdoms, and all of time...
Yet they cant predict the future.

The wrapping roots warn me

To run.

Run for my safety,
Run for my future...
And the little girl trapped in my past,
Who I've done all of this for.

Shes the reason I fight to survive...
But I cant leave the future I've carved out of nothing...

Where would I go?

Is it worth risking everything again?

I wish it would all go away.

Im so scared. The trees are supposed to shelter me from life
and yet my heart still races.

Maybe God is real... Maybe He can help me

Maybe I am cursed... Maybe I am destined to die young..

Maybe.. I'll never know all the answers.

But 200 years from now
when my bones are buried, come to the woods-- ask them about me.