cease my dance and ask why I don't smile
I've laid down my wants and needs
I've ignored what I know to be true
all so you could have your throne.
drowning in a pool of my self-loathing
and you want to see me splash, perform
all I am melting down to be bite-size for you.
breaking down to my nerves and fibers,
cause you want to see me rip myself to shreds.
you want me in a corner so I won't call for help
isolated from everyone who cares so I won't
tell anyone how I really feel
no space in your arms, I feel heavy in your heart
I've crushed myself like a soda can
no air, no light, no exit art
take this sadness for what it is
wishing I'd only parted from you then
"thus much let me avow"
you killed what good I had left
bruised the happy I should have now
decay replaces the once vibrant green.
poised at the ready to take one for the team.
selfish as it may be, I can't breathe.