I thought I would text you

About the people who troubled you,

About the girl who called twice and texted
Just to gloat, made you feel rejected.

I thought I would text you

About how you are so much more

Than what they tell you or,

how they make you feel.
I thought I would text you
"You are so far above—

Your brilliance in surplus."

But I got lost.

In my own thoughts,

In my own insufficiency.
There was a violent pause.

I closed my eyes.
And 
all I remember is—I got lost.

In my own calculations,

of how I fall short

In everything I try.

I don’t try enough.

I never stretch my hands

For the stars or the sun.
I gritted my teeth;

Like ice, I got frozen
.
I tried to list my reasons,

make a report—

But I felt smaller than an ant,

And I got lost.

I nail my feet to the ground,

Afraid to think of the sky.

I don’t know how much

Of my fear is truth,
How much
a lie.

I was thinking about trying to save you.
With my words and small things I could do
But then I got lost—

in how everyone 
reaches higher heights,
While I just seem to be falling down.
Step by step

Thud, thud, thud.
Silence.