I sit at my desk The window’s open, Or it's shut. I don't remember But I feel cold My hands wrapped around a pole at a skating rink, trying to keep myself from slipping On the cool, smooth surface.
I am walking on the freshly fallen snow, I am thinking
I stare out the window, Partially obscured by dark curtains. They are caught on my plants; Never fully closed, Never open wide. This is what makes me think The inbetweeness that is what makes
nothing good or bad, But I used to think there was. I twisted the sheets of my perception until The bed was unmakable and I gave up the fight I sunk into the mattress And closed my eyes
But this monotony is getting old; A cut spoiling behind a worn bandaid. I hated myself for caring But I now I don’t. That’s the point. I don’t care about anything anymore I am trying to hold on to the things that once mattered But the merry-go round is only going faster Soon enough I’ll have to get off.
I am looking out the window Because I can’t focus on anything anymore I let my eyes glaze over Because it's easy Painless. They don’t focus on anything. Everything is white, white, white