I have this thing, you see I'm overweight In this big body It cripples me from doing the things I enjoy Like swimming Like fashion Like running Like the many things I imagine Going to the beach Having hot *** Time just passes by And I sit here with regret I haven't spent my almost 22 years Doing things I enjoy Instead I've been fearful Scared of judgment Scared of wandering eyes Don't look at me What you see are lies I wish my body Reflected how I am On the inside That's all that matters, right? Not really That's another lie My weight cripples me And I let it I need someone to believe in me So I can shed it Is anybody out there? Do you even care? Perhaps I'll be fat forever