so long so painful this journey to surrender myself anew like a bud full of tension recognize you, reinvent the rituals of sensing I weep in front of the threshold of spring between eros and thanatos an excessive tenderness I am well prepaired for the erosion of time in my hair poetry and reality facing each other in my hands I do not hope do not despair do not wait for grapes to wonder it's just the taste of it, the feel of it, this quality of the infinite that makes me look at you with androgynous complicity