I wish I could yell instead of crying.
I wish I stood my ground as you do
sharp words and cold tone
unbreakable, unmovable, unchangeable.
I wish I could hurt as you do,
I wish I could cry and apologize,
late at night, the "I'm sorry"s come,
but nothing ever changes.
I wish I were like you,
I wish I had put a limit, drawn a line, defended it with my life,
I wish I had pushed you, yelled, I wish I had ran,
Anything but this smile,
I wish I didn't forgive you,
My forgiveness is too easy,
I wish I could blame you,
God knows it could be easy,
I wish I could hate you.
But here I am.