Hi
I’m in love with you
And I know that we’re strangers now
And we didn’t get our happy ending
But
I love you
Because I still remember loving you
And the way you smiled
And the sound of your laugh
Spending every waking second together
Because we couldn’t get enough of it
I remember how you looked at me
Every time I spoke
It was like I was breathing life into you
Your eyes lit like stars at every word
And I remember dancing
Holding your hands any chance I could
I remember you pressing my frozen fingers
Firm against your skin
And kissing my forehead
You kept telling me then that it was alright
That I was safe
I fell in love with you
When you kissed me in the rain
Just because I wanted to be kissed then
When you held me through my tears
And bared your soul to me
I fell in love with you when you were patient
When you knew me better than I knew myself
And you loved me as fiercely as I loved you
I loved the way you kissed me
The way you stole moments with me
Every single opportunity feeling like the last
I loved the way you needed me
The way you let me need you
The way you brought me into your home
And you made it seem like it was so obvious
That I belonged there
Almost like I always had
Like I was your destiny
I loved that my voice mattered to you
My heart and soul mattered
That when you loved me
You loved all of me
Deeply and unconditionally and truly
And I think that’s why it hurt so bad
In the years after you left me
I knew what I had lost was real
That it was
A once in a lifetime thing
That for as powerful and consuming
As we were together
There would never be another love
That could echo that one
And I think that’s why I said it so often
In the months after I knew
You were well and truly gone
I kept telling anyone who would listen
That I would never love that way again
That I must’ve missed my chance
Or that maybe my karma in a past life
Was claiming me in this one
So that I might never reunite
With my other half
I’ve made peace with that lately
Looked at your photos
And smiled at your new successes
In the years that have passed
I’ve grown wiser and even fonder
Of the memories between us
And I’ve learned to keep my eyes present
Even as my heart lingers in the past
I’ve learned to see our story
In the mountains and waters and skies
To speak my truth
So that others who love like we did
May never have to grieve that kind of loss
And I’ve accepted my heart as it is
Still wholly loving you
No matter how much time has passed
And so there’s my final truth
The one that will die only when I am laid to rest
And it is that I love you
That I always have loved you
That I will never begin to stop loving you
And that even in the next life
My soul may aim to find you
Because yours was the love I’d read about
The one I longed and dreamed for
You were the one from the moment we met
And I know now that this truth will never change