I want to smash every
******* object
In this room
Make debris of a life
I can’t make work
**** that ******* elusive swoon
I just can’t abide
I smash hope into the dirt

Relentless loneliness
Recurring riptides
Sweeping me out so far
Perhaps in the sea I can hide
Lonely mornings
Lonely noon, even more
With the moon
Still visible, mocking me
And my angst
Lonely lunch, you feed me
So I eat, at least
Lonely afternoon, you
In the next room
Barely look up
In my soul the deepest gloom
Lonely walk in the park
I pray and I smoke
Stay out until dark
Then back to my room
Lonely evening
Oh! 30 minutes of *******!
A fast goodnight
Excruciatingly fleeting
Lonely sleep
Toss and turn
I don’t feel right  
My skin burns
The worst I’ve ever
Felt gets worse
On sight

I’m so grateful it’s
Only my heart tonight
I’m so grateful I’m
Practiced in the art
Of depression, isolation
You want joy!
I am aghast!
Such abomination!
I must let go
Of all things past
I swim in a black sea
Of worry and regret
Nothing I’ve said
Nothing! Has helped

I throw up my hands!
I give up, good God!
I have no solution!
Moreover — it is
Obvious! That progress
Is a potion that
Can only come
From within
Within me! Yes — me!
That just can’t be
Please God
Please, Someone
Please help me