It's days like this
When the sky is Grey
And the droplets never cease
Falling from the darkest clouds
That I get caught in my head
Realizing what I'm really missing
I miss the comfort of being sad
Because at least then
I knew what to expect
Even if it hurt
At least I could control the outcome
But I keep reminding  myself
Not to slip down that *****
Because then I would be gone entirely