Existence that remains unknown is existence without rules. Since 'kun fiya kun' or "Be, and it is" is so basic, the only answer to "being" that solves is b+e=be. Still I question: "what am I, now?" as if I've never heard an answer.
My mind cannot cognize its own existence with "be" nor another verb. Its rationality is as truth, which has no limits. Yet, in the midst of expansion it asks "what am I?" Answering: "fullness" is rejected when I can reject the fullness.
"Disbelief" is what I am when everything is going right but I must say "I am not there yet". This disbelief is the wind in my sails, without it I would not have gone anywhere. For even positive knowledge says "there is more to find", really saying "you are not you". Thus, I am never. Whereby "be" laughs and says "still, there is nothing".