If I get told to do one thing I’ll do another.
I’ve been here before playing the joker.
Painting a fake smile upon my face.
Telling myself if you’re happy then  I’m happy too.

Having too much patience watching from the distance.
Cos’ I could write a million one words about you.
I play fake scenarios  through my head
Even if I’m overthinking in the end

We both have our own demons
That we fight everyday
The addictions to drugs linger
But who am I to judge?
Playing a dangerous game but I’m only going to hurt myself

I’m traumatised by the past and trying to show other people genuine feelings even though they don’t believe a word you say.
Shooting my shot everyday even though
Every day I do .. I fail.
I tend to just break my own heart
Just to try and bring myself happiness