I remember this one look we had just started spending time together it was a sunny afternoon in front of City Hall we were saying goodbye I hugged him and looked up he hugged me back and kept his head high our faces far apart his eyes gazed down at me so so so warily he was not smiling there seemed to be so much there behind that pensive gaze I wanted it every last bit of whatever it was itβs ok, I tried to say with my smile I love you already, I tried to say Iβll never forget that look