My darling is no longer here nor on tonight's poetry where half of her face was lost in the night and dreams are now no longer like a blushing red moon when I last saw her drunk in the lap of love.
It’s really happy if you can always create the night from restless in your heads-- creating many twinkling stars in your sleep reaching the sky seeing her cute smile from out there.
What is my darling doing now? Like a hope that I failed to achieve again. O, is this a loss that is felt many times?
Tonight is like last night. Poetry is like a cure for every addiction to such a sad life. O, I just let go--all the words. Just let her fly around the lost soul on a body that was empty and had become in rubble vanished.
Even though there is no moon and stars anymore even though you are still looking for the bright light in your cramped room-- because the sobs never end and always cover your chest. Tonight will remain a long night-- the sound of the bats are so deafening the sound of the crickets soothe the atmosphere— like your lonely heart who has died by many buts.
Alright, let's get it--everything like nothing had ever happened like the indifference of human life like you can only feel your soul fly in the imagination that you create yourself.
Alright, tonight will be like last night--a long night the night where my darling is no longer here neither in my head nor in this poem.
Indonesia, 10th February 2021 Arif Aditya Abyan Nugroho