Looking into the oblivion Staring blankly into this yellow wall In the midst of a house party My housewarming party What I am looking for?
When my friends are drinking and dancing And I'm sitting there even though I'm smiling They ask me, Pretty : why do you look sad? I don’t even know if I’m sad or just plain.. blank. What am I looking for?
Everyplace I go, the horizon at the sea or the peak of a mountain Or when I’m just chilling in my den Staring into the silence. What am I looking for ?
Is knowing too much a bane? Isn’t a foolish person happier?
It’s funny isn’t it? Or just an irony? That as I write this sitting on the chair in my room After that house party, my housewarming party I stare blankly at this wall and the wall stares blankly at me And then we are a perfect company !
I wrote this sometime when I was battling a heartbreak, a void, probably depression. To all of you who feel the emptiness, I want to say that it does not last. You are stronger than that and you can beat it.