i always feel as if i'm locked outside of some magical paradise where everything is better. happier. easier. maybe the door open if
i'd eat less
exercise more
learn how to talk to people
(to let people in)
dress better
have more money
(more friends)
be less lazy, boring, useless, dumb
(*******)
i'd love to enter that paradise someday, and feel my problems fall away from me,
like taking
                         off
                                       a bra
                                                          after
                                                                               a long
                                                                                                  day.