when you feel messy, my darling, i want you to think of it less like falling apart, and more like treading alone in the middle of an ocean— a metaphor i know you relate to on your most average days and on your worst ones
salt water waves with the audacity to dissolve the mortar between all your bricks
turning you into pieces
and you’ve been taught not to love or to be anything less than whole, so you feel messy— you call it lonely, depressed, wrong
don’t worry, you’ll find the shore and you’ll rebuild yourself this time like all the lasts— but that’s not what i want you to think about right now
i want you to take a moment right now in the middle of the ******* ocean dissolved disassembled
look at your pieces
and love every one for the buoyant miracle that it is
because you— you aren’t messy and you haven’t fallen apart
you’ve been shown what you’re made of
apologies to my friends if this looks less like a poem and more like a sermon