Always wait 'till it's gone
Always blind even when taught
Always deaf even when sought
Only looking back at what was
Only pilling bricks on my walls
Only gulping bile in my rue
Coulda had, coulda got
Coulda grabbed, coulda talked
Coulda laughed, coulda loved
Emptied comforts, emptied joys
Emptied rooms, emptied possibilities
Emptied mind, numb false serenity
Only broke up by
Intense flashes of
Sanity.
Disgust.