You're ready, you say, oddly proud take my face in your hands before you draw ceremonially two lines with *******, two lines of white on each of my cheeks, nodding earnestly smiling ever so warmly as if saying I'll be only a few steps behind, if not closer for now all the time my eyes ask of you all the time yes all the time your presence answers, reassures and I detach not detach and take a step forward into the snow the cold where I can see my breath forming clouds and it is not cold at all it is not cold