What should I write next
After endless of hours thinking
And making a long list
I look at my paper sinking
I have already described it all
Every emotion
Every feeling
Every fall
I sit there wondering in my thought
Realizing the dark space in my head
There are words that I have fought
Words that will never be said
I feel embarrassed almost ashamed
Of writing these sentences on paper
I know I am no where to be blamed
For the heart circus maker
I am scared of being judged
By a sprit
By a friend
Or a person I loved
Yet I still want to let this burden out
You can say I want to be free of it
And **** every single doubt
But I surrender and at the end I quit
God please give me the patience
You don’t give someone something he can’t take
Everyday is full of emptiness and hesitation
Holding myself together so I don’t break
At the end of the day I know the words are true
I
Love
You