sometimes it feels as though 
my hearts been replaced 
with the emptiness
of a widow’s arms
like one day 
it went off and never came back 
leaving a hole in my chest 
where you’re supposed to be
and
sometimes it feels like
theres a cage where my ribs should be
trapping every bad memory 
every bad thought 
every ******* word you’ve ever said 
inside 
and i'm not sure
what to do 
i don't want them anymore 
i don't want these memories
all they do is hurt and 
memories aren't supposed to hurt
you weren't supposed to hurt me
why did you hurt me?
this emptiness inside my chest
is starting to get heavy 
and i'm not sure
how much longer i can hold it 

i am going to break 

oh god 

you're going to break me