I was fifteen when I said no but a hand pressed against the back of my neck as tears ran down my face he said "if you loved me you'd do it. you wouldn't be crying" and he took what he wanted anyways. I wish I'd known better; I wish I'd told my mother.
I was seventeen Dating the only boy I've ever I loved when his fingers grazed my neck and I cried and apologized because I couldn't explain why. I couldn't tell my mother.
I was twenty one when I finally realized what happened to me wasn't the way it was supposed to be and I lost something I didn't know I had that I'd never know why; that I should've listened to my mother
I was twenty three when he returned with the audacity to ask if I wanted to hook up I wish I'd had the courage to say something to tell him what he did wasn't fair that I should've known better, that he should've been better; that I wish I'd listened to my mother.