Todays a good day
In comparison with the usual
I've only been found wanting
For you back 3 times
And its past 3pm
Every time my phone chimes
I scramble
because it could be you
Though frankly if it was you
I would not know what to do
To hear your voice again
I can not say exactly
But it may ******* away promptly

How cruel life is
The cruelest of a mistress
For me to want to beg you
for your forgiveness
For calling you out
For what I saw

Truly I could not forget this
Even if I tried
Lips locked on the couch
Your hand on his jaw
A sliver of me that day died

I could not find the gusto
To ask what this was about
Though I was furious
So angry i saw red
All i could think to do
Was run away from the image
Burnt into my head

Months have passed
Your name no longer causes dread
No more do I get trashed nightly
To hide the voices screaming
When I lay down for bed
My hopes and dreams were smashed
For the future of you and me
When you decided to me do me *****

Now no longer do I want you
I do not wish to here your voice
I have grown now and realized
That forgiveness is my choice
It was not my fault
I am more than enough
I hope you find it tough
To realize the truth
That in life there are few
Who would love you as I did
It now all makes sense
I do not wonder why
Have but always wanting more
With this I say my last goodbye
I say this with reverence
Good luck, *****
Forever yours
C