My eyes
They hold my secrets
They shine with tears
They shine from heartbreak

My wrists
they show my pain
stained with red and white
stained with my bad choices

my heart
it pumps blood but I’m not alive
it’s been broken too many times
it doesn’t know how to love

my mouth
it’s covered by a mask
I’m the joker
my smile has been etched on

look at me
really see me
you miss all of these things
you don’t notice

hear me
listen closely
you’ll hear my cries
covered by my laughs

don’t tell me you know me
don’t tell me you know what it’s like
because you don’t
you don’t know my pain

you don’t know anything
you don’t know why my body is scarred
or why I jump when you touch me
you don’t know why I don’t eat

I’m the book you never read
You think you know me because you’ve seen the cover
But you haven’t even read the pages
You couldn’t be bothered to dig deeper

So, don’t get too close
Because you don’t know me