I have stretched these muscles thin trying to find salvation, crawling through the earth I have sought out redemption in the dirt, sat steady in the soot under the horizon hoping to find grace, hoping to find you.
I am trying to grow a garden, burying the pieces you left me in and hoping to take to the soil and grow. Grow from the porcelain-cracked picturesque prison you have kept this body in. Grow from the nights spent above ground, soaking in sunlight like the flower I should have been.
I have always been more comfortable with the worms, and no promises of oxygen can rip me from the feeling of mud flooding my lungs.
One night I will see through the cracks in the rocks, and the moonlight will beckon me from this burial. But until the night claims me, before the starlight seeks me out, I will sit with the garden I have grown from the tips of my fingers and rot.