it was nice
it was wonderful
though slowly i lost interest, i've lost interest in maintaining most relationships, i broke the heart of a boy who loved me to pieces and dealt with every mess i made and the mess i am
so if you ever want to know how to break your own heart just get yourself into a relationship with a person who loves being in relationships and brings gift and tells you just how much they love you all the time and smothers you in love
then lose the ability to love progressively and don't tell them for months and start to drift
then break it off and cry a bunch because you know you are the person at fault for hurting such a wonderful kind person
and continue to feel numb inside, letting the depression engulf you just like their love did, and bury yourself in work
because then your heart will be broken indefinitely