You were now in the past and will now be in the future and it too, as all things must, shall come to pass.
Consequently, life was now, shaping the immediate and distant future, viewed through the lens that is the cumulative past.
Change now will have written a past, one which will neither need nor want rewriting, facilitating a fantastic future, free from the need to be reshaped.
Important things to ponder à la Jordan Peterson:
What incredibly stupid things are you doing that are stopping you from doing what you already know you need to?
What are the consequences if you do not stop doing those "shooting myself in the foot" kind of things?
What does your life look like if you do stop doing those things and actually get after the things you know you need to do to progress in life?
Ok, great, now that you know the answers, how are you going to go about implementing these changes in small and manageable increments?