maybe you wanted me to hate you
'cause God knows how much I love you,
maybe you hate me, or you just don't like me
'cause why else would you...
appear and disappear in my life like that
like you were just passing by;
i watch you at it
waiting and waiting
while here i am
waiting for you to decide.
to stop,
to look at me,
and see me,

choose me?

you wanted me to hate you
for me to forget that i love you,
so i could stop waiting
and you stop evolving in your own remorse.
'cause every person knows its exhausting
to be inside this room, this kind of feeling.

and maybe,
just maybe
i would get tired of all these
hopefully