In the last few years I've been to two funerals In the next few years that number could jump to six
So how do you do it? How does one manage to speak at a funeral? What do you say to encapsulate the entire lifespan of a human In just a few sentences?
How am I supposed to be able to talk about all the good and compassionate deeds While also talking about all the hurtful and venomous actions and words? And more importantly how do you speak in general?
The last two times, my voice became a snow covered field cricket I stared at their stone-like, alien faces And could only focus on the open casket.
I had words to speak, yes But the dictionary I keep in mind was slammed shut and shoved into a melting iron safe The absolute SECOND I couldn't recognize who lay before me at first glance. Did I try to speak? No I avoided the tearful, dagger filled looks of the room by my own volition
Maybe it wasn't my place. Maybe those words weren't meant for me to say in a room full of grieving and tired eyes But if no one else is capable of speaking the truth no matter how heart-wrenching it may be Where do those words come from?
I know it'll be my turn to speak one day And I know on that day my voice will scream and cry My vocal chords will rip and I will sob more so than I have ever dared to before.
On that day I'll understand how to say goodbye And how it leads to an acceptable Goodbye Forever