I sit on my front steps with a camera and listen to the leaves As they slide across rough concrete Like the wind has secrets to keep If I listen I may decipher what’s dear. Leaves carry notes of love long lost Letters meant for hands that can no longer hold. I pick one up and trace its veins and listen to the message it contains. Regrets for time not spent now the currency is valueless. Updates of the present a simple gift to the past. Notes about plans now cancelled eternally. Some leaves dry up and get crushed, some bear the marks of words rushed, But not a single one lacks love. Not a single one lacks love. I capture moments with a click and a shutter. Preserve the memories so I won’t lose them in the clutter Of a desk covered in papers and pens. With drawings of a time I can barely comprehend. Why is holding a leaf like holding your hand? A fragile, weightless being, supported by the wind. I don’t want to let go and see you taken away again. No, I must remember the time that we shared. When leaves were a beauty pointed out on forest trails. Find comfort in the memories Captured by cameras and pens There is a beauty in every beginning and end. I can whisper that to the leaves send them like a letter I penned And maybe when the wind delivers it to those ghostly hands We'll know it's been read. I know I won't know until I see you again. Whispers in the wind Until I see you again and receive leaves from the messenger wind.
Here's a poem I wrote awhile back but wasn't ready to share right away. It's how I feel every January.