I was never Enough for you
I realized this today
As I was walking among tall skyscrapers
Noticing how small I was in comparison
I never felt fully satisfied
With you
Not because I made comparisons to others
But because I compared myself
To who I thought You should be
Which only left me with
Chronic disappointment
Because I could never live up to who I
Wanted us to be
I couldn’t be satisfied with myself
In the present moment
I was never good
Enough
I always needed to be better
Yet I unknowingly proceeded to chase
After something I would never achieve
Because the closer I got
The farther it would stray from me
Due to its continuous transformation
But not anymore
You see
Healing thrives in forgiveness
It’s almost as if it’s needed
And I have forgiven you
You caused us harm in many ways
Yet I still hold you dear
Because I know now why we did suffer
I forgive you for the hurt
And with this forgiveness
I begin to embrace who we once were
While happily accepting the reality
Of who we are today
And will be in the future
Knowing it has been built
On the sorrows of yesterday